As I sit here eating my 3rd to last packet of ramen, it occurs to me that I have a little more than 5 weeks left in the semester. WHAT?! Is my first year of college really almost over? I suppose it's a good sign that I haven't dropped out, starved to death, or gotten any regrettable tattoos or piercings. As the semester winds down, (which by the way is a very misleading term. If anything I get busier when the semester "winds down") I've been giving some thought with what I want to do this glorious summer. So I'll make a list here, for most of the world to see, and come back and check it the first day of Fall semester 2011 to see if I accomplished any of it.
1. Work enough hours to keep up my CNA license and save up so money so I'm not forced to live off ramen noodles all semester.
2. Avoid all ramen related foods. This also includes spaghetti noodles with butter and salt.
3. Pay off my housing for next semester.
4. Get back into going to church, scripture study, personal prayer etc.
5. Learn more French
6. Learn more quick and
cheap dinner recipes.
7. Find a job in Cedar City before I move back for school.
I think that'll do for now. Perhaps I'll come back later and add some more, but I'm already wondering if I can do some of those things in just three months. But before I get too involved in summer plans, I should probably concentrate on all my final projects and final exams. This includes a mini-debate that may cause me to lose my lunch. I'm terrified of public speaking, especially anything in a debate type form. I'll never forget 5th grade, when I foolishly
volunteered for a debate competition between Larsen Elementary and the other elementary schools of Nebo district. I spent weeks preparing with my debate partner, taking copious amounts of notes on all the research we did, so I would be 100% ready on debate day. My debate partner even had her father make us these cute little wooden boxes to store all our note card in. So debate day comes, and I'm so excited. This is what I had trained for, I was prepared to kick some 5th grade butt with my amazing arguments. My partner and I sit down and size up the competition, who were unfortunately very very good. They make their opening statement, and do so totally within the time limit, and sit down. It's my turn now, and my palms sweat, my stomach drops down to my toes, and I start getting little black floaties in my vision. I stand up, open my mouth, and nothing comes out. This is tragic, seeing as in a debate every second counts. When I've used up half my allotted time gaping like a fish I suddenly remember that I do indeed have control of my vocal cords, and my arguments come out in a lovely wave of word vomit. I don't remember much after that (I think I intentionally blocked it out), just that my team didn't win, the judges looked at me like they were trying not to laugh, and sitting in my mom's car after the whole debacle crying like the little girl loser I was. The only up side was that mom took me for ice cream afterwards. Way to celebrate my epic failure mom :)
I understand that I'm not that 5th grade girl anymore, and that I have done more in class presentations since then, but the thought of this debate coming up petrifies me. I'm hoping now that I'm an "adult" there will be less awkwardness and word vomit involved this time around, but with my luck that isn't likely.
The title of this post comes from a song from one of my new favorite bands, Noah and the Whale. I definitely recommend you check them out. They are the perfect mix of folk, pop, indie, angst, and just all around awesomeness.