CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS CHRISTMAS!

Christmas day is awesome, I'll just put that out there. I couldn't fall asleep till like 3.00 because I was so excited and then I rolled out of bed around 8.20 and woke Curt up. (Shocking I know, I never wake up before Curtis) I got most of what I wanted, I'll be annoying and post a list of everything

• Black Converse 
• Boots
• iPod Dock (though I think we may have to return that because it doesn't have  a wall adapter)
• Pocket Watch Locket (by far my favorite gift.
• Stockig Stuffers that I'm not gonna bother to list. 
• Awesome Leather Gloves (I'm calling them my driving gloves)
• Shiny Silver Wallet

I love the pocket watch, it's so pretty and not super huge and antique looking. This lady in Australia hand makes them and it's just perfect. Here are some of the pictures of it from her site.

<----- Front of the locket

Inside of the locket and the watch face---->

<---- The back of the locket

It's the same color and like I said not that big at all. I love it to death!!

Here is a link to her Etsy shop, she has so many beautiful pieces for sale, I wish I could buy them all. I love Etsy, it houses so many creative people and the things they can make astound me! They also sell tons of vintage things, I spend hours just looking through things and wishing I had a disposable income :)

2.30 Blogging

Yes I'm well aware that it's 2.30 in the morning but I can't sleep and I figured I'd pass the time by posting and listen to some Lady Gaga. I'm not always into her but tonight felt like a good time to listen to her. Christmas is tomorrow I suppose. Though to me it feels like Wednesday hasn't ended yet. I can't wait to see what I get for Christmas. It's a little surreal knowing that this is my last Christmas living at home. I'm sure I'll come home next year over break, but I won't be living in the same house as my dad and Curtis. At least I hope not. I need to get out of here sooner rather then later. I need to fill out my application for SUU but none of the printers in my house work so there goes printing it out and filling it out. Bleh why can't they just assume I want to go to their school and just give me a place. Ah well, if wishes were fishes.....

So I know the movie is almost 4 years old or so but I love the Marie Antoinette soundtrack, it's just AWESOME! I usually don't listen to any of the artists on the soundtrack, just because I've never been exposed to most of them. The Strokes song is great as are all the ones by Bow Wow Wow, especially
Aphrodisiac. Every time that song come up on my shuffle I feel like dancing, however I'm too much of an introvert and wouldn't dream of actually doing so, at least, not while there were any witnesses. Ah this album always made me remember how much I loved New Order. Adam Ant is on here as well and I've tried to get into some of his stuff but I've had a hard time of it. I do like the drum line on Kings of the Wild Frontier though.

Hmm, guess I'm not really in a Lady Gaga mood anymore :)

Why Christmas Isn't Always So Merry.

I can't seem to shake this feeling of depression that's been hanging over my head lately. I don't know if it's the fact that term is ending and I'm stressing about that, if it's my pretty nonexistent social life, or that it's the holiday season again. Maybe a combination of all of them, I just hate feeling so good for a while then just wanting to drop it all and move far far far away.

Grades were due today so there really isn't much I can do to change what I have now. I just hope I'll be okay. School feels like such a challenge sometimes, especially math and physics. I'm so terrified that I won't be able to handle college, I don't want to be a drop out. Christmas break really couldn't come at a better time, I feel like if I don't get a break soon my brain will implode.

Christmas is hard. It's a hell of a lot easier then it was 3 years ago but it's still a little sad and melancholy. Don't get me wrong, I love Christmas, I love the sights and smells and sounds. I love being close to my family and friends who care about and love me. I just wish my family felt complete. I mean I miss my mom, of course, and around the holidays it's hard know that she won't be here for yet another one and never will be again, but now it's more like I miss feeling like a whole family. You know, mom, dad, sister, brother. Curt, Dad, and I are a family I know that, and we're close but it always feels like we're missing some key element and it bugs me. It's not even that I want my mom back (don't get me wrong, I love her and always will, but I've learned to live without her and I can see how things in my life really wouldn't change if she was here so it's no use wishing) it's that I want somebody to care about me like a parent does. Dad cares, he cares a lot and I love him for that but I want to be selfish and have two people care for me like that. I don't think I'll ever get that though, I should be happy with the parent I still have (and I really am blessed that dad is here for me) but I just want what my friends have. I want a mom, because apparently I don't get my real one. I know I'm almost 18 and I'll be leaving soon but I think that no matter how old you get, some part of you always wants your mom, or somebody to care for you like your mother did. Okay, now it's time to put my abandonment issues back into their little box.

Nothing Gets Crossed Out

That's pretty much the story of my life. I have all these goals and tasks to do and I never can seem to get them done. The list gets longer and longer. Thank goodness Christmas is almost here, I can't wait! Thanksgiving was fun, I ate way too much BBQ'd turkey and yams, had a great time at Samantha's, and had a nice break. I'm ready for Christmas though, it's weird to think that this is my last holiday season at home. I mean I'll come home for Christmas and stuff but I won't actually be living with my family anymore. I wonder what that'll be like. 

I drove to school today for the first time in like two weeks. It started snowing, and heavily, around then and I do not drive in the snow or ice. Today I finally braved the roads (seeing as they were all pretty much clear and dry) and things were fine. It was my first time driving the new BMW and it seemed to handle great. All that changed when I got into the school parking lot. The thing is covered in ice, like a skating rink. I was so scared, my back end kept sliding around and I had no idea how to put the 4-wheel drive on. It took me forever to park and I was so freaked out. I made it though thank heaven and didn't kill myself or any one around me. 

Speaking of all the ice, it is a terrible, terrible thing. I've already had my first fall of the winter. This happened Saturday when I was up at my aunt Natée's and my uncle Dan's house. Just as my dad and I are leaving, I start walking down their steps and fall flat on my butt. It hurt so friggin bad! I thought I was safe for a while though. I mean get the first slip out of the way and there is no way gravity will be so cruel as to let you fall three days later. Well let me tell you, gravity is a bitch. I was walking to seminary today, minding my own business, and next thing I know I'm on the ground on top of this huge slab of ice. I should sue the school for not properly removing snow and ice. The whole back side of the school and all the portable's are covered. If they expect us to have class out there they need to make it SAFE! Heating the stupid buildings (with more then one little space heater) would be awesome to. 

My jacket smells like fried foods. We went to Chile's tonight after Curt's choir concert. It was pretty tasty, but this huge group next to us had these obnoxious guys that would not shut up. 

I need to figure out what classes to take next semester. I want to try and get my CNA but I need to figure out if I can drop some classes so I can actually take the CNA course. Blah I'm tired and I need to get up at like 5.30 for a seminary morning side. 

Weekend Wars

It's been an age since I last posted. I'm now the proud recipient of a 21 on the ACT, sister to a 16 year old brother, owner of a new drawstring bag which I made. Things have been okay, though to tell you the truth I'm absolutely wiped out. I feel like have so much going on, when in reality I really don't. I'm just lazy and my time seems to fly by. 


     Curt has a jazz concert tonight at 7. I'm excited to hear them play, I know Curt has been working really hard. The weather was great today, fairly warm which is great because I'm getting sick of the cold. I think it's a bad sign. seeing as it's only been really cold for maybe two weeks and I'm already looking forward to spring. It's snowed a little bit since I last posted but never enough for it to stick to the ground for very long. It's melted by the next day. 


     I kinda want to go see New Moon. I vowed that I wouldn't get too excited about it but I can't help it. I'm excited and I refuse to feel ashamed. I wish I had tickets for tomorrow, but I'll probably have to wait a while to see it. Ah C'est la vie.


     MMMM. I smell pizza!

Landlocked Blues

TERM IS OVER!!! Thank goodness to, I thought it would go on forever. I did fairly well in all my classes thank goodness, no F's or anything like that. now I just have to do even better next term. Today was a half day and I get the next two days off which is quite frankly bliss.

     On a more somber note, my former band teacher Miss. Christensen died this passed weekend in a bus crash, here's the link to an article about the crash. Curtis and I went to the candle light vigil American Leadership Academy held for her. It was good but is it bad to say that I'm glad it's over? Her funeral is on Saturday and I think Curt and I are going.


     I don't want to dwell too much so moving on to happier things. LONG WEEKEND!! I don't really have any plans except for to sleep as much as possible. Maybe I'll hang out with Kaitlynn, and Mauricio and I were planning on doing something this Saturday but we'll see. I want a vacation though, I need to get away from Happy Valley for a bit. Some place warm would be amazing, near the beach to. Actually I just want to go to Disneyland, I miss it. I feel happy when I'm there and I can forget about my cares for a few days.

     I had a senior meeting today and it was just basically Ms. Cooper chewing us out for not ordering our cap and gown, also for not going to the senior meetings during lunch. I however have done both (being the goodie goodie nerd I am) and the meeting was pretty much pointless, though I did get out of math for a bit.

Something Vauge

It be cold here in Spanish Fork. We've finally turned the heater on and it's reminding me of Christmas. I feel like dragging the tree and all up stairs and setting up. I figured we'd get a jump start on decorating so we can leave all out stuff up from October till February. No seriously folks, the Christmas stuff stay up at my house till the secondish week of February. Why till then you ask? Well really it's quite simple, I refuse to have Christmas decorations in the background of my birthday photos. If my birthday wasn't so soon after it would probably stay up a lot longer. It always feels so empty when we take the tree down so we put it off as long as possible.

Oh look at me, talking about Christmas and we haven't even had Halloween yet. I used to get really excited for Halloween, I loved dressing up and the free candy wasn't bad either. Though it wasn't really free, you've got to work for it. They make you walk all over the neighborhood in freezing cold weather (unless you're one of those whimps who trunk-or-treats) and you have to sit through adults trying to scare you. I remember this one time when I went to the door of a house and rang the bell, I was the only one up there and a lady answers the door. I smile and hold out my bag waiting for her to give up the goods and she just stares at me. Stares for a really really long time. I'm about to turn away but she finally says, "What do you say?" It freaked me out so much that she actually spoke so I said the automatic response to that question. "Please?" She started laughing and saying I was a very well mannered little kid. I felt pretty stupid because I couldn't figure out what she wanted me to say. Isn't that what all adults want you to say. Please and Thank You. Then it dawns on my little brain. The answer is trick-or-treat. Suffice to say I felt like an idiot.

First term is almost over which is crazy to me, I mean where did the time go? Why are all these things due all of a sudden. Why oh why didn't I keep on top of my school work like I promised my self I would do this year. I'll tell you why, it's because I love procrastination. That must be the explanation. I'm going to go buy a ring and ask it's daddy for it's hand. Who is procrastination's father anyway?

I have to take English 10 next term. Not happy about it but what can you do. I didn't like the class then, I know I'm not going to like it now. However it'll bring my GPA up and that's the reason I'm doing it.

I'm finally taking the ACT on October 24, yeah took me long enough I know but that doesn't matter I'm registered now and I'll report to hell at 8 a.m. sharp.

That's all for today munchkins, till we next meet!

The Ice Is Getting Thinner

This school thing is highly overrated. Is it May yet? When can I be done with high school and move on to bigger and better things? What's happened since I last posted? Not much actually, life has been pretty dull this past week.. I got sick last week (real exciting) and was throwing up Chinese food for a night then just feeling crummy for another day. No need to worry reader, I'm much better and am now in the process of catching up on all the work I missed. Mainly a test and lots of math and physics assignments which definitely aren't easy.

I wish I had some cool pictures to post or something but seeing as my camera is sitting in a plastic baggie in pieces I have nothing to take photos with. As for my computer, it's still in need of a new hard drive which I'm hoping to get very soon. I'll be happy when I don't have to use the downstairs computer when I need to update this or work on homework. My iPod Touch has been helpful though, since I can check facebook and my mail from it as well as get on the internet though it can be a pain sometimes. I miss my macbook.

I had an assembly today after school about graduation. Well mostly about graduation cap and gown and all this other junk you can get with it. Though I don't think I'll order my invitations from the Jostens company. They're rather expensive and I don't really like the way they look. Now to figure out who to invite.....

I suppose that's it for now....
till next time my dearies!

Haligh, Haligh, A Lie, Haligh

I can't stop listening to Bright Eyes, it's just too amazing to not listen to.

It's once again been well over a month since I've updated and I'm sure you're all just so relieved to see that there is indeed a new post.

What you may ask has been going on in my life since August the 2nd? Well I'll tell you since you asked so nicely. I started my senior year of high school on the 17th of August and while I'm ready to graduate and move on to bigger and better things I'm also anxious about leaving home. I wonder if I'm really ready or if it'll all just blow up in my face soon after I leave.

The Friday before school started my dad's retina detached, that was not a fun experience. I had to take him to the hospital that night for emergency surgery that night and then he was down for a little over two weeks recovering from that. It was a tad stressful being the only one who could drive or really do anything outside the house. Though he wasn't allowed to read or do anything on the computer. He started watching a lot of T.V. and that's how he got both of us hooked on Mad Men.

Let me just say that I love this show. I love the characters, the story line, the actors and most especially the clothes. I love how they stay true to the way things were in the 60's. Kids riding in the car with no seat belts let alone car seats, as well as mixing drinks for their parents and running around with dry cleaning bags over their heads. :)

The clothes are awesome and while I don't think I could always wear something to make my skirts fluffier all the time it would be fun to dress like that for a while.

I went to homecoming this past Saturday, and while my date was a total dud. Ignoring me for the most part for his friends and just in general not talking to me, I had a good time. Thank goodness for big groups of friends and Tiffany and Bridger. I felt kinda bad because they came to the dance together but I think I dance with Bridger more than Tiffany did. But it was great to get to know both of them a little better and I had a lot of fun hanging out with them. I think I made a little bit of a fool of myself at the dance but hey I had fun and I think that's all that matters.

My dress was way cute and cost like 10 dollars (thank goodness for thrift shops) and my hair was amazing and took so little time to do. If I can find the pictures on my dad's computer I'll put them up on here.


My date's name was Scott and I doubt I will ever see him again thank goodness. Pretty sucky first date (pathetic that I have to wait till my senior year of high school to go on my first date) but it was a great first high school dance, it'll probably be my last as well but at least I'll be able to say I've been to one.

I've been home sick today which hasn't been fun at all. I was up most of the night paying tribute to the porcelain alter. I'm staying away from chicken in garlic sauce for a while.

Every Day's Like Sunday.

Anyone want to guess how I spent most of my day today? Why playing Sims 3 of coarse. That game sucks up so much time, it's not even funny. Though it's usually time that I enjoyed wasting. I made a sim of myself that looked really nothing like me. I fail at creating sims that look like real people. I've been playing for probably like 4 or 5 hours. Not straight I did take a break for dinner around 6 but yeah. That's how Whitney wastes time.

Started Atonement this morning, haven't gotten very far though because I sadly fell asleep. Not that it's not an interesting book, it really is, I was just way too tired because I slept like crap last night and staying up till almost 5 didn't help.

Now I'm downstairs in my dad's office, listening to Curt play the sims. I wonder how long he'll be on it for. It's funny to hear the strange comments he makes. Oh now he's on the phone with Brittany. He talked to her a little while ago when I was on the computer and I was spazzing out and shouting random things in the general direction of Curtis and the phone. I really need a life, or friends, or maybe both!

Curt and Brittany are talking about cinnamon rolls and now I'm über hungry, because man that sounds so good!!!!! Samantha should be coming over to spend the night on Wednesday. I'm excited to see her as it's been ages since we've hung out.

Oh you should be ever so proud of me. I learned how to properly spell Wednesday. Curt is saying "Be cool boy, be cool. Be cool like a Voss." He's a strange duck, though I suppose I must love him.

Books, Books, More Books, And My Battle with Insomnia.

I should go to bed seeing as it's almost 4 in the morning but I'm really not tired anymore and it's exceptionally hot in my room for some reason. Must be my computer. Any who, I have this beautiful scrape on my left shin from falling down my front steps about three days ago. This just proves my point that I should go outside as little as possible. Naw I'm kidding, kinda. I'm hoping I won't have a nasty scar because really my legs always look banged up any ways and I don't need a huge scar to mingle in with all my random bruises.

Finished reading Pride and Prejudice and Zombies and let me tell you it was awesome! I highly recommend it to a fan of the book. It's so quirky and funny and so close to the original. It's basically the original text with the extra bits about zombies added in. I say read the original first as it's amazing by it's self but the zombie version will just make you love it even more.

Next on my list of books to read is Atonement. I saw the movie and thought it was epic and beautiful and sad and so many other things. Now I've finally gotten around to getting the book and I hope I enjoy it. From what people have told me the book is even better and I so look forward to reading it. After that I'm not sure what I'm going to read.

I also found the audio book of my favorite book when I was younger. The Two Princesses of Bamarre by Gail Carson Levine. I fell in love with this book when I was probably 10 I think, I could be totally wrong though and when I found the audio book I was so excited because I was finally going to learn how to pronounce the name of the kingdom where they lived. In my head I finally settled on Bear-em but I listened to the audio and they told me it was Ba-mar. Duh, I wasn't the sharpest tool in the shed when I was younger so forgive me my mispronunciation. I love Princess Addie and I think the wizard Rhyes was the first book character I ever had a crush on.. Princess Addie and I also share a fear of spiders which I really connected with when I started reading. I also loved her older sister Meryle though I couldn't stand her name. I was a name snob back in the day. Still kind of am...

I hate staying up this late because my stomach always starts to growl and I get hungry but I'm too tired to get up and make food and plus it's like 4 in the morning. I probably won't wake up tomorrow till 1 if I'm lucky. I need to get back on a normal sleeping schedule or there's going to be hell to pay when school starts back up.

It's become that time of the month when I realize my happy pills are dangerously low. Now normally this wouldn't be a problem seeing as I'd just have to talk to my doctor to get my stupid evaluation done and get my refills (I sound like an addict) but they're booked solid for like ever and I've only got a few left. Bad planning on my part I know. Any who I'll deal with that soon.

Okay Okay fine I'll go to bed. Sheeze don't have to be so mean about it.

Vampires and not the stupid sparkly kind.

I'm so bored and sick which is never a fun combo. To pass the time I'm listening to a book, actually a series of books, because I'm way too lazy to read right now. It's the Southern Vampire Mysteries, the one that the HBO t.v. series True Blood. Anyway it's amazing and I saw the t.v. show before I started reading the book. Now I'm on the 7th book and I think there are 9. I love the characters and the lady who reads the book is amazing! Anyway I'm not sure if I'm a Sookie and Bill fan or a Sookie and Eric fan. I can't really say why I like each couple because it will spoil some of the plot (not like anybody reads this but on the off chance.)

I watched this movie called Lost In Austen. Not the best movie in the world but the plot was pretty good. A modern day girl goes back in time I guess and into Jane Austen's Pride and Prejudice (argh I can never spell that word. Thank goodness for spell check) and switches places with Elizabeth Bennet. The story got me thinking, wouldn't it be awesome if we could go live in certain books. I think that would be amazing, just to get to interact with these people and live their lives for a little while. Oh well, I guess I should just be content with where and when I was born. I used to want to live in a time where I would be a princess, probably around the Tudor time but I think that would have been a little scary though now I think about it. As I got older I wanted to go back to either the Victorian era or Edwardian era but I like being able to brush my teeth and take a shower. I think it would be cool to go back to the 40's. Yeah rationing everything would suck and there's that little thing called WWII going on but still I think it would be fun to live there just for a while. I mean they had cars, radio, movies, electricity, running water, and they still cared about how they looked and how they dressed when they were going out in public. No pajama pants at the grocery store for these people. And we would wear hats! I love hats in general, although I find I don't look good in them but I just love to see the people wearing them, and the cool little veil things some of them had!c

Oh I would be so happy if I got to wear a hats like those with a dress to go with it. It'd be amazing, and the big band music playing at an USO function. Then I'd probably have to buy a black one to wear to a funeral.

Okay enough of my rambling, I'm going to go look up more 1940's fashion while I listen to my book.

Saturday's are the best.

I'm so tired even though I've done nothing all day. My eyes are starting to hurt because I've been wearing my contacts for about a week straight and it's definitely time to take them out. I'm ready for bed but I think it's too early. I've no idea what to write about because nothing has happened today.

Updating Your Blog Is Fun To Do, Fun To Do, Fun To Do!

Oh dear, what to write about. Well I made spaghetti for dinner tonight. I know, me cook, a huge shocker!!!! It was pretty good but I think they best part of the meal was the frozen Texas Toast that I just had to pop into the oven. Oh dear, I think I may be turning into a house wife. Please, somebody shoot me before that happens.

So as I sit here blogging and listening to the sounds of my father singing karaoke I wonder, when the hell will summer be here. I am so sick of school and winter and snow and just icky weather. Give me some heat and the boiling sun!!! Speaking of heat and sun, I'm going down to St. George on the 4th to look at colleges down there. It should be awesome, I'm so excited. Looking at colleges makes me a little nervous though, life is just going by so fast. I mean next year I'm a senior and that means I have to start applying to colleges and I need to take the ACT this summer. In fact I was getting onto the computer to do some trial tests but then I thought about my blog and figured I'd be a procrastinator and do this instead.

I've been pretty anxious to get out of Utah lately, I really need to go to California. I miss the weather and I really, really miss Disneyland. Yes I'll be the first to admit that I am an avid Disneyland Fan. It's pretty much amazing and when I'm there I can let go a little. I should just move into the Sleeping Beauty Castle and just live in Disneyland. 

Thats all for now kiddies, much love and don't do anything too stupid tomorrow.

Lalalalala

I finally have iLife '09!!! Happy day, anyway now that I've got that out of my system on to business. What business you may ask, well the business of me tell you about my life.

In P.E. today they really worked us, I can tell I'm going to be sore tomorrow. I hate gym so much that sometimes I just want to scream. It's the bane of my existence and should be banned. Enough on that though.

Right now I'm waiting for all my photos to import into iPhoto and that is taking a while. I've noticed I'm not a very patient  person. 

Busy Saturday!

Ugh it's been forever once again. I told you I'm terrible at keeping up with these things. Oh well, so what's new in my life you ask. Well I got a hair cut,

 and it was my 17th birthday in February. I had a good time and my dad made me a cake which was so tasty. 

I always seem to update this thing late at night, maybe that's because I'm bored and have nothing better to do with my time. OH OH OH I did something today!!! I had to wake up at 5 o'clock in the frickin morning so I could get ready for this band clinic that was going on at BYU. I was so tired, the band clinic was okay, it was nice to get some instruction from professional judges. Though I go to my school this morning to take the bus up to BYU but it doesn't show up. Turns out either the bus driver just didn't show or my band director forgot to call one. Anyway the short and short of it was that we ended up having to take two 15 passenger vans up there and even then I still had to drive my car with my brother. It was a long day, though we where done before noon I felt like we'd had a full day. 

So it's almost midnight which means it's an acceptable time for me to go to bed haha. Toodles for now!!!